Some Tough Questions

I have been thinking about Bobby's death a fair amount today, and thinking about his surgery and how it was suposed to help him live longer, but instead, it took his life.

I said to a few of my brothers "You know, he'd probably still be alive if he hadn't had the surgery."

And I was thinking about that a lot...And about how the Lord calls our lives to an end - or more specifically when He calls our lives to an end...

I know that our human/free will can over-ride the will of God...He will never force His will on us, we just have to chose to accept it or reject it...Or do the opposite...

Now I know the Lord isn't going to punish us that severely for disobedience, or for choosing our own will over His will for our lives...And half the time do we even really ask Him what His will is?...

But if the Lord does have all of our day numbered, and He knows when we sit, when we rise, and if He knows everything about us - when we are to be born and when we are to die...and if He has written our lives out for us...Then what happens if we try to re-write them?....

What if God didn't want Bobby to have the surgery?...(that is a possibility)...What if He had something else planned for Bobby, and Bobby just thought the surgery was the best option, but God knew better and God had more days planned for Bobby to live, but because of Bobby's choice, and the complications during and then afer surgery, Bobby lost his life?...

Does God re-write our days if we chose a different plan than what He has for us?...Does this re-write sometimes cause a decrease (or maybe an increase?) in those number of days?...

Let's say that Bobby didn't have the surgery, what would have happened?...Would he have died some other way, at the same time, or would he have lived another 10 years?...

The only one who knows that is God, I understand...However, these are just some of the questions that are running through my mind...

For whatever it's worth...

-Ramona Anne